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My parents were less than thrilled. But they loved me. They supported me. Now 9 years later- having my first was the best thing that ever happened to me- she taught me how to love unconditionally. She taught me forgiveness. She saved me.
time to turn it around
Friday, May 31, 2013
When I fell pregnant with my first, I was unmarried I waited until I was 6 months along- I had managed to hide the pregnancy through the holidays and gatherings. First I told my sister- she said she would not advise me to get an abortion but she would always love me, I cried. I went to her office to call my mother, I was too scared to do it alone. She stood with me as I called my mom and broke the news.
My parents were less than thrilled. But they loved me. They supported me. Now 9 years later- having my first was the best thing that ever happened to me- she taught me how to love unconditionally. She taught me forgiveness. She saved me.
her first picture......
And now...
My parents were less than thrilled. But they loved me. They supported me. Now 9 years later- having my first was the best thing that ever happened to me- she taught me how to love unconditionally. She taught me forgiveness. She saved me.
Netflix Dropped Dora and Diego--- OMG
Thursday, May 30, 2013
"My life is over!!"
Pixie's favorite shows are Dora the Explorer and Go! Diego, Go! She would watch them on the iPad via Netflix every day. She learned so much about different animals and she loved seeing the live ones at the zoo and telling me about what she learned.
One day- we were settling in for the night and she started looking for Dora or Diego on Netflix to watch an episode- they were gone. With growing anxiety and fear I searched Netflix for the shows. They disappeared into thin air.
I don't think Map can help us with this problem. After some investigating I found out that Netflix did not renew their contract with Dora and Diego's company.
Fab.
It was like her best friend left, and to a certain extent that is exactly what happened- Dora and Diego were her friends.
The meltdown that followed could rival any tragedy. There were tears, enough tears to fill an ocean... from both of us. There was sadness and mourning.
There was yelling: "HOW DARE THEY TAKE MY SHOW AWAY!!!!"
Really-- were they not thinking about kids and how they love Dora and Diego? Were they not thinking of the parents? What, exactly were they thinking about?
Pixie's heartbreak was palpable and real.
Thank goodness for Amazon Prime-- they still offer Diego and Dora for instant streaming. And I will be buying a ton of Dora and Diego DVDs at resales so even if Amazon drops them we will still be prepared- just like Dora's Backpack and Diego's Rescue Pack.
Pixie's favorite shows are Dora the Explorer and Go! Diego, Go! She would watch them on the iPad via Netflix every day. She learned so much about different animals and she loved seeing the live ones at the zoo and telling me about what she learned.
One day- we were settling in for the night and she started looking for Dora or Diego on Netflix to watch an episode- they were gone. With growing anxiety and fear I searched Netflix for the shows. They disappeared into thin air.
I don't think Map can help us with this problem. After some investigating I found out that Netflix did not renew their contract with Dora and Diego's company.
Fab.
It was like her best friend left, and to a certain extent that is exactly what happened- Dora and Diego were her friends.
The meltdown that followed could rival any tragedy. There were tears, enough tears to fill an ocean... from both of us. There was sadness and mourning.
There was yelling: "HOW DARE THEY TAKE MY SHOW AWAY!!!!"
Really-- were they not thinking about kids and how they love Dora and Diego? Were they not thinking of the parents? What, exactly were they thinking about?
Pixie's heartbreak was palpable and real.
Thank goodness for Amazon Prime-- they still offer Diego and Dora for instant streaming. And I will be buying a ton of Dora and Diego DVDs at resales so even if Amazon drops them we will still be prepared- just like Dora's Backpack and Diego's Rescue Pack.
Dishwasher Obsession
Monday, May 27, 2013
With my husband- we have always had a dishwasher and for some reason the kids have all been fascinated by it.
Princess- who hated the vacuum loved the dishwasher. She could hear the door being opened from across the apartment she would get her little bum over there as fast as she could.
Stinky had the same fascination he would try and crawl into the dishwasher when the drawer was open.
We plucked him off of the door more times than I can count.
Peas was the same way, add absurd determination and lightening fast crawling. I would usually pop her on my back and then do the dishes so she couldn't climb in, she would just pull my hair out by the roots.
Pixie was the same way- and she loved to chase the vacuum.
Now it is LittleDudes turn. The big kids help a lot, but he is so fast and he can pull hair like no one's business, when it is dishes time he usually goes in his bouncer-- baby jail- until the loading or unloading is done. After we close the door he leans against the door and hugs it. He loves the vibration and the warmth.
What is the huge draw to the dishwasher. We may never know- a great mystery of baby kind.
Happy Birthday
Friday, May 24, 2013
Today Princess is 9. 9. Can you believe it?? How'd that happen??
She is super. She is compassionate, kind, confident, smart and pretty awesome.
I cannot believe that G-d let me have the privilege of being her mother, it is greater gift than I could ever imagine.
Princess, you are so special, you are loved and cherished by so many.
She is super. She is compassionate, kind, confident, smart and pretty awesome.
I cannot believe that G-d let me have the privilege of being her mother, it is greater gift than I could ever imagine.
Princess, you are so special, you are loved and cherished by so many.
A blessing in sadness and hope
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
I am sure like all of social media you have seen the story of Zach Sobiech. A teen who when down fighting- 'and didn't really lose'.
His story made me ugly cry at my computer
But it was wow. It was so uplifting, it blessed me in a way I did not know I did not know I needed to be blessed.
"You don't need to find out you're dying to start living"
Watching the video resonated with me in a deep soul crushing way, heart breaking, but most of all spirit lifting.
I wanted to share how amazing this kid was (and is- in heaven).
.But I thought about what I could do to help. You know when you need. to do something, a craving to do something to help in some small way. This, for now, may be all I can do, but for now here we are.
Maybe this song and video will bless you in a way that you don't know you need
Some celebrities lent their star power as a tribute to this remarkable young man.
His story made me ugly cry at my computer
But it was wow. It was so uplifting, it blessed me in a way I did not know I did not know I needed to be blessed.
"You don't need to find out you're dying to start living"
Watching the video resonated with me in a deep soul crushing way, heart breaking, but most of all spirit lifting.
I wanted to share how amazing this kid was (and is- in heaven).
Maybe this song and video will bless you in a way that you don't know you need
Some celebrities lent their star power as a tribute to this remarkable young man.
LittleDude's Day
Monday, May 20, 2013
A day from the perspective of LittleDude
2:30 am wake up, briefly, just to ensure that I am still in the proper place, Mama and Dada's bed, closer to mama. Fuss a bit so Mama will snuggle me more.
5:43 am Suns UP! Time to get to get going! Dada takes me away from Mama. For some reason he thinks she does not want me to pull her hair- its so effective! Besides- we did not discuss the leaving Mama thing. Not cool man. Then he doesn't even feed me. He tries to cuddle. I have my standards. I cuddle with Mama and Mama only.
6:00 am Mama comes downstairs. Yay! It has been forever. I thought I'd never see her again. She gives me milky good sweet nectar of all that is good. She also gave me some breakfast of some sort. But the milky- that's the good stuff.
6:45 am I toddle around looking for something interesting, the cat does not think pulling her whiskers is fun. She runs away as soon as she sees me coming. One day I'll get her. At least the dogs like to play. I drive my cars.
7:00 am Brothers and Sisters are up. They can be fun, but mostly they bother me- they get in my way from knocking things down. While they eat, I eat my second breakfast- don't judge. I am a growing boy.
7:30 am Diaper time. I prefer to fill my pants in the morning. It makes Mama run around a little it is super funny. Great way to get her to blow on my belly.
8:00 am Look over what I need to do today. Its going to be busy! How am I going to manage to empty the plastic plate drawer and the sock basket AND the tupperware?
8:15 start on the socks. Take a handful toss and squeal! you cannot forget the squeal.
8:20 my arm is tired. Socks may look light but repetition is a killer. Go over to sister yank her hair. It is so funny.
8:30 Mama picks me up and takes me away. She gets out one of the carriers. OH I GET TO RIDE WITH MAMA! TIME TO GO ON HER BACK!
11:45 Not sure what happened- perfectly happy on Mama's back and the next thing I know I am waking up. Someone put something in my cup.
Lunch. Big kids have sandwiches. I have milky (YUMMERS!), some fruit, and yogurt.
Someone said "Park" I heard it. I know I did. I was not born yesterday. Hooray! We are going to the PARK! Now that I am a big boy and can walk I get to walk there by myself. I hope there is an open swing.
Swinging is awesome. Have you ever had an underdog? Its like swing peek-a-boo but better.
On to the sand. Must get sand in my hair I need a good exfoliation. The park by my house does not have the tasty sand, the tasty sand is at the sand box at the big park- there is no point in even eating this stuff.
I'm learning how to use a shovel- I am so big!!!
Slides are also fun. I can get to the top of them and go myself now. My big sister still likes to help though- and Mama catches me.
Who said we could go home? Why? There is still so much to do! The teeter totter! I need to drive the train. I express my displeasure. Loudly. Mama picks me up. She is so mean! We get home. I am still yelling. Oh milky- that sounds good, it makes everything better.
5:00 pm Seriously someone is messing with my drinks. Dada is home! I am so excited I can hardly contain myself with clapping and yelling.
5:45 Dinner. I love when we all are together. My sisters and brothers are so funny yelling and laughing at each other all the time.
6:45 Bathtime. Best part of the day. Splish splash, rubadubdub. LOVE IT.
7:15 Night-nights (its what we call pjs in our house) Mama gives me a massage with lotion and puts my night nights on me.
NOT READY FOR SLEEP YET
I get to go back downstairs and play some more. When it is time to go to sleep, I go with my Mama. She reads me a story (I love the Piggy Book) and then I have some milky and get comfy for sleep. Mama knows to pat my tummy when I lay across her.
It was a good day. I did not get everything done I wanted too the socks, the cabinet, the drawer, but I got to go to the park. One day I'll catch the person messing with my cup.
LittleDude
2:30 am wake up, briefly, just to ensure that I am still in the proper place, Mama and Dada's bed, closer to mama. Fuss a bit so Mama will snuggle me more.
5:43 am Suns UP! Time to get to get going! Dada takes me away from Mama. For some reason he thinks she does not want me to pull her hair- its so effective! Besides- we did not discuss the leaving Mama thing. Not cool man. Then he doesn't even feed me. He tries to cuddle. I have my standards. I cuddle with Mama and Mama only.
6:00 am Mama comes downstairs. Yay! It has been forever. I thought I'd never see her again. She gives me milky good sweet nectar of all that is good. She also gave me some breakfast of some sort. But the milky- that's the good stuff.
6:45 am I toddle around looking for something interesting, the cat does not think pulling her whiskers is fun. She runs away as soon as she sees me coming. One day I'll get her. At least the dogs like to play. I drive my cars.
7:00 am Brothers and Sisters are up. They can be fun, but mostly they bother me- they get in my way from knocking things down. While they eat, I eat my second breakfast- don't judge. I am a growing boy.
7:30 am Diaper time. I prefer to fill my pants in the morning. It makes Mama run around a little it is super funny. Great way to get her to blow on my belly.
8:00 am Look over what I need to do today. Its going to be busy! How am I going to manage to empty the plastic plate drawer and the sock basket AND the tupperware?
8:15 start on the socks. Take a handful toss and squeal! you cannot forget the squeal.
8:20 my arm is tired. Socks may look light but repetition is a killer. Go over to sister yank her hair. It is so funny.
8:30 Mama picks me up and takes me away. She gets out one of the carriers. OH I GET TO RIDE WITH MAMA! TIME TO GO ON HER BACK!
11:45 Not sure what happened- perfectly happy on Mama's back and the next thing I know I am waking up. Someone put something in my cup.
Lunch. Big kids have sandwiches. I have milky (YUMMERS!), some fruit, and yogurt.
Someone said "Park" I heard it. I know I did. I was not born yesterday. Hooray! We are going to the PARK! Now that I am a big boy and can walk I get to walk there by myself. I hope there is an open swing.
Swinging is awesome. Have you ever had an underdog? Its like swing peek-a-boo but better.
On to the sand. Must get sand in my hair I need a good exfoliation. The park by my house does not have the tasty sand, the tasty sand is at the sand box at the big park- there is no point in even eating this stuff.
I'm learning how to use a shovel- I am so big!!!
Slides are also fun. I can get to the top of them and go myself now. My big sister still likes to help though- and Mama catches me.
Who said we could go home? Why? There is still so much to do! The teeter totter! I need to drive the train. I express my displeasure. Loudly. Mama picks me up. She is so mean! We get home. I am still yelling. Oh milky- that sounds good, it makes everything better.
5:00 pm Seriously someone is messing with my drinks. Dada is home! I am so excited I can hardly contain myself with clapping and yelling.
5:45 Dinner. I love when we all are together. My sisters and brothers are so funny yelling and laughing at each other all the time.
6:45 Bathtime. Best part of the day. Splish splash, rubadubdub. LOVE IT.
7:15 Night-nights (its what we call pjs in our house) Mama gives me a massage with lotion and puts my night nights on me.
NOT READY FOR SLEEP YET
I get to go back downstairs and play some more. When it is time to go to sleep, I go with my Mama. She reads me a story (I love the Piggy Book) and then I have some milky and get comfy for sleep. Mama knows to pat my tummy when I lay across her.
It was a good day. I did not get everything done I wanted too the socks, the cabinet, the drawer, but I got to go to the park. One day I'll catch the person messing with my cup.
LittleDude
I am kinda surprised it took this long
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
I am open about my pole dancing. It empowers me as well as makes is a fabulous workout.
A friend of my daughter is trying to stir up trouble with other kids and adults by telling them I pole and how inappropriate it is.
My daughter knows that it is not in appropriate and is fabulous - but I am sorry she is dealing with a kid who wants to stir the pot.
I am not surprised it is happening- I am surprised that its happening in this way- with a kid.
Which complicates things. If it were an adult- I could address it with her, discussing the full details of what I do versus the 'inappropriate' things.
A friend of my daughter is trying to stir up trouble with other kids and adults by telling them I pole and how inappropriate it is.
My daughter knows that it is not in appropriate and is fabulous - but I am sorry she is dealing with a kid who wants to stir the pot.
I am not surprised it is happening- I am surprised that its happening in this way- with a kid.
Which complicates things. If it were an adult- I could address it with her, discussing the full details of what I do versus the 'inappropriate' things.
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