Do you have anxiety? I do.
Living with anxiety is like living in a pressure cooker. My thoughts race so fast that I can't put words to them or slow them down long enough to even breath. My heart races, breathing quickens, and muscles tense- and that is an average day- being engulfed in a sense of terror for no reason feeling like I could lose my mind and jump out of my skin.
When I found my current doctor, I was suffering from this pretty acutely. Thankfully, this was an easy one for him to pin down and immediately started me on meds to help calm my mind. I do not advocate going on medications for every little thing, but there are times when they are necessary. Sometimes it is a short term thing sometimes it is a long term one, which ever it is- its ok.
People should not feel stigmatized because they are sick. Whether the sick is a brain thing or a kidney thing or whatever. It is no ones fault. Sick is just sick- and sick people need care- not judgement. So I will be very open about my experiences- maybe so others will not feel stigmatized or alone.
When I started the meds and they started working, it was like my head was quieter. My brain and thoughts slowed to what must be a normal speed. It was amazing to feel that. Is this what normal people feel like all the time? I could sit still, I didn't twitch. I could sleep. It was like someone stopped pressing fast forward in my head.
Now, especially during stressful times I have break through anxiety and I need to tweak my meds and work on meditation a bit more but now more than ever I don't feel a fight or flight response when the doorbell rings.