boundaries

what do you do when the lines between you and your children become blurred when you are always being touched and talked to when you forget who you are as a person and become something...someone else. When you forget what it is to be alone to not constantly think of the children or think in terms of mom hood.

I looked through my closet the other day to go out with a girlfriend and I realized all of my clothes were 'mom' clothes great for playground wear...being a grown-up and heaven forbid sexy...not so much.

The parenting thing is my job. cool I get it. But even full time workers get a day off once and a while. Calling in sick is an option...personal days are there for a reason. But that is the thing....I would not want to go back to work and send them to daycare either... it is very frustrating being stuck in the position of either working and surrendering caring for your children to someone else or staying at home and being mom...exclusive to everything else.

I have been told to go out at night with friends and do things for grown ups....etc. It is not that simple. I do not have a husband who walks through the door at 5:30 or 6:00 and is there to shoulder half the childcare... this is a 24/7 job.