Awkward!

There are some people who just have this innate ability to just do just be social. They chat with ease, they engage others, they just are.

I heartily wish I was one of them. My humor does not seem to flow, things seem forced, I just don't know how to do that. I over think everything and then it becomes terribly awkward, for me and for the other person.

So I will watch in wonder how these people do it. It is just like school when the cool kids were, well, cool, and I was just utterly clueless as to how to do that.

In my head I will sit there and play out what 'lines' I should say, what the character I am should do, but what I should say or do remains a mystery. Which then leads me to look odd because I do not say anything, or worse, I dominate the conversation and make everything about me, when it is not. Not even a little.

~yet another confession from me, a clueless mom.