I have been back to pole dancing for a few weeks and things are starting to come back.
I no longer feel like I am going to kill myself on a standard invert, my shoulder mounts are there--- they need polish but they are there!
One trick that was driving me insane was the inside leg hang. I could not get in the right spot to save my soul. It was making me so so so mad.
My Monday class was fantastic. I am starting to really feel invested again. For a few weeks I didn't know if that would mean that it was time for me to find a new exercise because I was just getting too frustrated. But as I have gotten stronger and started to get tricks back I am feeling more confident.
This week I had a make up with Molly on Wednesday- aside from deciding that I need to take pole poise she helped me get my inside leg hang back again. I was fighting it. I was not allowing myself to melt into the pole and let the pole hold me. By being too stiff I was countering what the pole was doing. So I got it.. even better, I got the cupid.
Always during the relaxation at the beginning I have a hard time getting my head to shut up, settling down into relaxation is always hard. Somehow it happens with out me noticing it- next thing I know I am settled and enjoying my class.
How did I go months with out this???