Luck or lack of it.

Does it seem like some people get everything? Being pretty..Smart.. everything that you (I) ever wanted without having to work so hard at it??

I wish I could say that I am not jealous of it. But I confess I am. I confess that I am jealous of people who find their lives fulfilling and are so talented. I confess I feel desperately untalented and unattractive and no amount of anything seems to help it.

Sure when something good happens to someone I am happy for them but a little teensy part of me is jealous of it. Yes, I recognize that it is about me not them.
I wish I had their luck or talent too. I cannot think of anything that I am 'good' at. Really there is nothing.