last night was my first night back pole dancing in close to a month. I was actually nervous again. I used to just be all excited about it. This time there were nerves.
What if I had forgotten EVERYTHING. What if I still hurt? What if was not strong enough or flexible enough anymore? There were a ton of variables running though my head.
During the stretching meditation Karyn said something about letting go of pain and discomfort with one big breath and I burst into giggles. As a friend said... I would need one heck of a big breath. I was not as flexible as normal; which was embarrassing and annoying. Some movements hurt. They felt like a bruised kidney a deeply bruised kidney.
During the trick portion I was super frustrated. I could not get the tricks. I tried and tried my momentum was not there, I was not landing right, or I was not extending enough. Maybe with more practice it will get back to normal.