exasperation

So I am done. Pixie does not feel well and has been fussing (screaming) for three hours. ALL of my Tylenol is on the recall list. Peas is feeling her two-ness. Stinky is not letting up. I am tired. I want so badly to go hide and sleep for a few months.

When most women I know feel frustrated and overwhelmed they can cry. I can't. I get angry. Like mean angry. It just festers. Why can't I cry? Why? Which makes me frustrated and the cycle continues. Vicious.

At the pediatrician the doc asked if I have help- and I laughed- help? Really??