working without a wire.

my anxiety is running high. My shoulders are around my ears. My eye is twitching. I feel like I am walking a wire balancing-juggling. My mind racing a thousand miles ahead trying to look okay not quite sure what to do. Part of my wants to just drop everything and implode for a few days...but the decimation from my implosion gets harder to rebuild.

the noise is the worst. just the extraneous noise (no, not voices or anything).

Trying to hold it together because if I let it go I am not sure I can get it back.
But I will get through it. I have faith. I have help. I have grace. I am not alone, even when I feel like I am.