I am not a good socializer. I get nervous terribly so- around unfamiliar people and do not generally leave a good impression. Really, I am nice, and reasonably within the bounds of 'normal' I just have trouble with people.
This was obvious last night. I have NO freaking idea what to talk about. What to say! I did not know the ladies very well and I am afraid I made an ass of myself because I am just not good at it.
Even around people I know really well- I am just awkward.. *sigh*
One time that this was very very obvious and actually quite a painful experience was at a get together for a message board a few years ago. It was so awful- even a few years later I still think about how bad it was. The women judged me after hardly knowing me- based on my admittedly poor social skills.